princess and the sparrow

2011-07-27T21:21:00.002+01:00

I twist and bend myself

over the pieces that are left

shredding and tearing

back and forth

only a song of a grasshopper

soothes

2011-07-18T21:10:00.009+01:00

the story has started and ended there

photography > mariann fercsik www.fercsik.com

neckpieces > me www.urtekaralaite.eu

girl > kettivy

2011-07-18T19:07:00.004+01:00

I will forget you

every day

Mi dimentichero’ di te tutti i giorni

by Chiara Mu http://www.chiaramu.com/chiaramu.com/midi.html

2011-06-10T18:16:00.004+01:00

in the night of a cold foreign city built from expectations on expectations

I have lived my dream in a moment that will continue forever

there are no expectations in africa, he said

2011-05-25T08:13:00.001+01:00

my new cosy home

www.urtekaralaite.eu

come visit

2011-05-19T00:02:00.000+01:00

the song of a lost bird in the night

has freed me

forever

2011-05-13T23:06:00.002+01:00

looking forwards or backwards

(from the series winds and spells)

2011-05-10T11:17:00.002+01:00

the night the street lights were not lit

I learned

how well you can fold my shirt

still

2011-04-25T12:09:00.002+01:00

you still hunt me

yet I cannot hide

away

2011-04-25T09:15:00.007+01:00

deserted from my life

you occupy my dreams

there I give my heart away

instead of resisting

2011-04-19T09:24:00.006+01:00

I did still believe in moments that are able to stand for themselves

he said and disappeared into the deep greenery of a spring morning

forever

restless things

2011-04-17T08:52:00.005+01:00

found magic by Olivia Jeffries (restlessthings)

http://www.oliviajeffries.com/

http://www.etsy.com/shop/restlessthings

sloes

2011-04-09T09:36:00.004+01:00

I pricked my fingers when I picked sloes

my toes froze when I picked sloes

and now it's the blood of those sloes that drip slowly onto my heart burning with its acid

shining with its blues

(in winter's skies

with tries

cries

and lies)

2011-04-07T12:51:00.002+01:00

I cannot deny myself

I will sleep for hundreds of years

2011-04-05T11:03:00.005+01:00

where is the now

2011-04-05T11:01:00.003+01:00

2011-04-05T11:00:00.002+01:00

I am

still your slave

2011-04-05T10:58:00.003+01:00

my heart is fine

the longest winter in my life is over

2011-04-02T14:23:00.001+01:00

I sleep in the past
I live in the future
just where is the now

2011-03-23T20:24:00.001Z

the day I believed you
that my heart is fine

2011-03-20T20:09:00.003Z

hold on, heart

hold on

2011-03-17T20:30:00.001Z

we don't want to know the future
we want to know there is future
bright bright future

2011-03-12T20:08:00.000Z

along the canals
you came

into the sea
you left

2011-03-10T20:30:00.001Z

the leopards aren't that dangerous in the end,

he said,

and walked into the forest

2011-03-10T20:06:00.004Z

along the canals you came
you came into my life

along the canals

followed and chased

by foxes and boats

fed with

blackberries and evening rain

you came into my life then

2011-02-21T20:29:00.001Z

I can grow without a weapon or a dream..
(Efterklang)

2011-02-01T08:59:00.000Z

hold on love

2011-01-13T12:04:00.000Z

my left eye tears independently from the right one

today I'm accepting it

2011-01-13T11:59:00.002Z

what is real

2011-01-05T20:11:00.002Z

I danced with the shadows when you were gone

when you were gone I danced

with the whole world I danced

I danced with you when you were gone

now that you are gone I dance

2011-01-05T20:05:00.005Z

nothing was still then

I tried

to catch it with a silver pin

just then my head spinned

2010-09-10T14:06:00.001+01:00

the only soldier now is me.

2010-06-14T00:33:00.004+01:00

after the late summer sun sets
I spy myself so I wouldn't get lost

2010-05-15T18:45:00.004+01:00

I'm discharged
however
the whistle has lost sound

2010-05-04T12:00:00.001+01:00

love until you dont

2010-04-28T14:09:00.004+01:00

yes, peach

2010-04-27T22:53:00.006+01:00

you're inventing machines to chase waves
while I chase winds myself
barefeet in morning rain

I cry sitting in the cloud
and let nettles sting me more

I wait for boats
to never get on them

2010-04-22T19:48:00.006+01:00

expelled from my life
you find shelter in my dreams
where I secretly lust for you

2010-04-21T14:56:00.001+01:00

I do know how to try

2010-04-21T14:49:00.002+01:00

ashes to ashes

2010-04-21T14:27:00.005+01:00

from frosty morning grounds
one by one
I pick your tears

together with the ashes
I fly 'em into deep waters

I pick
your wails

that echo
from mountains
to valleys

over the bay
across the waters

I string 'em with the wind
hang 'em between the two seasons
and wait
for the sunset to take us all

2010-03-23T16:23:00.006Z

when
the moon's in my left eye
and the sun is in my right one
birds're flying from one to another

my world is so small

2010-03-15T22:41:00.000Z

when rain hesitates to come
I wash the bay with my own hands

I rinse clouds
rise trees
swirl down with streams
glide round with gannets

when rain hesitates to come

*

I go your way
you go mine

everything's light

2010-03-06T21:22:00.003Z

yesterday I was asleep
today I weigh my heavy dreams and I weigh yours too

I also weigh my worries and my cups of tea
then I weigh my fears and add some sour tears

I weigh my meals, my clothes, my plants, my dog
and add a pinch of loneliness

tomorrow I'll weigh my doubts, my questions, my hopes,
my cigarettes, my empty shopping bags

the day after tomorrow I'll be asleep again

2010-02-16T18:17:00.002Z

the swell is big
it goes over me
under
even inside

little rolled balls of darkness fall in
and disappear

oh, do I fear darkness
oh, do I fear depth

I climb up the mountain
and reach the valley
where people go to die
where silence takes over
where darkness is not present in such light

the swell is big
it washes the valley
it washes me

2010-01-20T12:34:00.002Z

over the bay many suns set
the wings and the horseshoes
remain

2010-01-16T11:54:00.005Z

when the horses disappear into the cloud
I rest my head on a stone
lay myself on the ground
and listen

2010-01-08T23:22:00.002Z

I stared through the window and waited for the rain to start. I could see it soaking the mountains and messing up the glassy surface of the bay, eventually it took over the horses and the neighbour's house

still I sat there at the window and waited for the rain to come here

but snow came instead

2009-12-19T17:18:00.003Z

the men I love, the men I don't love

(Annette Messager)

2009-12-18T15:07:00.001Z

will we ever walk under the same sun again

j.e.m.r.q.

2009-12-15T23:16:00.004Z

I can still smell you here while you're on the other side of the globe

deep

2009-12-12T23:40:00.009Z

it's deep
my mind
and
my search
is

and
the forests
are deep

*

there
I'll tie
my
slender hands
to you

2009-12-07T22:45:00.004Z

unit
unanimously
united

unification
unite
unity

2009-12-01T21:16:00.003Z

to rain

cut out

2009-12-01T20:46:00.002Z

refrain
vain
blame
stain
pain

retain
vail
gain
trail

(The order of the words can be different as the floating meaning remains. It's like the words that one randomly picks from a conversation which one vaguely follows.)

2009-11-26T23:05:00.006Z

let the storm hit
I want it real

don't play it
don't pull those silly faces
don't look at others

let it be real

let it all be real

real

2009-11-15T23:59:00.008Z

...
vanish in the autumn's mist
thick evening's air
so tear clear
fear
is what comes after
comes after me
goes after
or ahead
grows inside
or above
I tear
the gallons
and the seas
that do not belong to me
I borrow them
never return
home either
or do I not know time
yet

2009-11-10T22:26:00.003Z

is it the howling winds of the nights or soothing
spells of the days that brought me up

2009-11-04T22:11:00.005Z

they say I inherited fear

but in my dreams I'm still an explorer

someone else

2009-09-30T23:25:00.007+01:00

it was only the leaves swirling in the wind that had color then
the rest was a mirage - objects with no clear shapes, colors or names

dream is not reality
and reality is not a dream

why chase one when you have another and vice versa
why someone else's cup of tea always tastes better

why the color of my eyes changes after each rain and never gets back to its original

I've sinned

2009-09-28T23:53:00.001+01:00

could love be served straight?

tear clear

2009-09-24T23:56:00.005+01:00

through poppy field I run
to catch and befringe

with tear clear thread

shadows of the cranes
heading south

after the last rain

ballad of my autumns

2009-09-22T22:50:00.009+01:00

I heard pears falling onto my roof again
and saw the stars mirrored onto all other skies at once

three steps back, where..

where

where frozen smiles and joys were left to age
while tears and fears were tighten to my slender feet

now would I climb that roof again with

such

weight on me

shiver

2009-09-06T19:31:00.002+01:00

2009-09-06T00:17:00.002+01:00

when we talk about her
we talk less

something

2009-09-04T23:28:00.009+01:00

please, turn me
inside
out

there is something missing

please, flip me
upside
down

there is something missing

please, get
in
and
out

there is something

missing

(visual from http://streetqueen.deviantart.com/)

last summer dance

2009-09-01T00:03:00.005+01:00

here I am

my bare feet scuffle leaves on cold evening grounds
westerly wind curls eyelashes and tickles the back of my neck

I can hear the fox nearby

and

I am finally ready for it

me and the other half of my shadow will dance to celebrate the secrets and sorrows of this grand summer

I wish that all the waters would stop flowing for that moment filled with stubborn grace

2009-08-31T23:50:00.004+01:00

I'll tell you all my secrets if you'll tell me one of yours.

now

2009-08-21T22:55:00.006+01:00

'awareness is the state or ability to perceive, to feel, or to be conscious of events, objects or sensory patterns. In this level of consciousness, sense data can be confirmed by an observer without necessarily implying understanding...'

(it is said so)

I think now I really know what awareness is.

shadow

2009-08-21T22:28:00.004+01:00

when I was 15, my best friend was 18.
we sat in a big dark field of a strange foreign country and talked. she was saying then that materialistic things are meaningless. I remember strongly opposing her idea.

today I look around and count the items that I own.
tomorrow I'll give half of them away.
the day after I'll forget about them.

from then on my shadow will be much lighter.

visual borrowed from http://www.flickr.com/photos/manfredi90/3765607603/

caos calmo

2009-07-27T23:06:00.004+01:00

invisible wind cuddles my wet faces

yet

restlessness

.

holly-days

2009-07-11T12:46:00.003+01:00

the little girl is extremely happy.
colorful hair bands and a straw hat.
tiny toes dipped in a warm sea water.

leaving

2009-07-09T14:50:00.008+01:00

I'll crave for you when hitting the rocks with my bare feet under Ionian sun.

I'll drink warm night's rain instead.

It'll wash my dry throat while I'm in the far land...

tell me, brother, what is time

2009-07-08T22:25:00.003+01:00

Erik Satie - Gnossienne No. 1 (best by Teodoro Anzellotti)

2009-06-24T12:28:00.014+01:00

'summer stands still
as tiny as a bird
with colored chest
on the edge of the forest'

a poor translation of an excerpt by Aldona Gustas

I found two big bright stars in my handbag this morning (I think it was Gemma and Alkaid). I wonder who fished them out from deep waters of the river when pine trees swayed their tall heads in evening's breeze...

(screens by Hasegawa Tohaku)

the world of blue

2009-06-23T18:27:00.005+01:00

'blue is the color of the sky
blue is the color of the mountains
blue is the color of the sea'

(Spain World of Blue)

blue is the color of me

do you believe in fairies

2009-06-23T16:59:00.005+01:00

I forgot to ask if you believed in fairies

later you showed me one

(magical visuals were found)

forest

2009-06-23T00:21:00.009+01:00

/please, take me/ back to the forest

where fairies and fays weave leas

2009-06-21T21:31:00.009+01:00

...when the fox disappeared into the dark and left us two alone you said that we should try be honest with our own feelings.
I said nothing.
the clouds above the river looked like the ones by Dali.

purple
green
blue
yellow

very slim and very long.
I watched the clouds and said nothing.
white soft mist floated above the dark waters slowly swaying. birds sang mesmerizing lullabies right above us. the air was thick. just before the
r
a
i
n

I wanted to ask you whether your body was still connected to your mind. mine wasn't.

that single motionless moment I didn't want to be a bird anymore.

but you still waited for me to say something.

presents from gods

2009-06-17T18:44:00.005+01:00

...and after that Gods would sit in their thrones up in the trees, under a river float, inside the humming birds, on the edge of the cliff or right next to you and sip silky high mountain oolongs from see through singing cups.
their job is done.
things taste different now.

2009-06-12T23:13:00.004+01:00

she silently tiptoes behind me when my eyes are fixed on rippled reflections of dark skies. 
I wonder if it's the water or the clouds that move... or maybe me. or perhaps all together but in different directions.
she peeks at me briefly when passing but hesitates to stop by. 
in a split second she's crossing the river via a bridge.
instinctively I disappear into the ripples.

now we are one. 

2009-06-11T22:00:00.005+01:00

the mask has slipped
morning rain washes my faces

what is you
what is me

2009-06-10T22:44:00.010+01:00

while doing a research on masks and identity for an upcoming project I came across an amazing controversy:

* Mask is a covering worn on face to conceal one's identity. (as in thefreedictionary.com)

* In ancient Rome the word persona meant 'a mask'; it also referred to an individual who had full Roman Citizenship. (according to Subhash Kak)

photo by Susan Meiselas. Indian dance mask.

musiques nocturnes

2009-06-10T12:58:00.002+01:00

Chopin - Nocturne Mi Bémol Mineur

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